I suck at calling my parents. We’re on really great terms. We just don’t talk. It’s mostly my fault. I’m not all that great at follow up. Or sharing the things I’m processing with others – especially when I feel like we have diverging interests/priorities. It’s got me thinking.
How do people grow distant?
I think you just talk less. Gradually. Over time. Before you know it, it’s weeks since you’ve talked. Then months. Your relationship descends into the lack of a relationship. It might still be there. But not any more there than the unread books on your shelf.
Maybe it’s the same with God?
Like you just stop talking. I don’t think people just stop believing in God. I think they stop talking to Him. Gradually. Over time. I’m noticing that exact flaw in my relationship with him. And again, it’s my fault.
I don’t wanna stop talking to God.
So I’m opening up. I’ve taken to unloading all my thoughts on God. Especially about videogames. What I’ve played, what I think about it. What I think he thinks about it. What I sense his spirit saying. How that makes me feel.
That wild and chaotic verbal spillage can turn into intercession for the world around me. But it’s really just talking.
Maybe God just wants us to talk to him?